So as most of you know our family of three is now a family of two at least for the time being. It's never easy saying goodbye and honestly we wanted it to be as quick and painless as possible so I dropped him off we kissed he loved on Parker and off we went. We didn't hang around to see him leave just too difficult, honestly Michael vetoed it, seeing as it would only make the goodbye that much harder for all of us. We had our "moment" at home when Parker woke up from his nap Michael went upstairs to get him up and ready to leave and I knew he was struggling, as you can imagine the thought of going months on end without being able to even touch your child would have to be a little overwhelming. I can't imagine the guilt he feels as a father and husband leaving his family, I can only hope my words, unconditional love, and support reassure him enough to make him understand I and his children are and will always be proud of him. So as if it wasn't enough that he is leaving on the car ride to drop him off I look down at my arm to see a mark that resembles a bullseye. Uh Oh naturally I freak out because earlier that day we had taken Parker to the creek and walked around the woods for a bit. So when we pulled up to say our goodbyes a medic came up to look at my arm and informed me that I needed to have it looked at he was concerned it could be the start of Lymes disease, WHAT? If you know me you know I am a Negative Nancy, I think the worst, bad trait I know. I barely could focus on saying goodbye to my husband as now I think I have something that could potentially be harmful to my unborn child, who cares about me, so a mommy thing huh? I went straight to my Ob clinic which is located in the hospital and they honestly had no idea what to do with me. They made a few phone calls and decided to test my blood those results will be back Monday. In the meantime after speaking with an "environmental disease specialist" and sending a picture of my arm to him he felt I needed to go ahead and start treatment as a precautionary measure. I guess when treated it rarely poses a threat to the unborn fetus, if not treated it can be potentially fatal. They did do an ultrasound and listened to the heartbeat it was at 165 bpm and the baby was a little wiggle worm! So that was comforting. I am now on an antibiotic three times a day for 14 days. What is even crazier is that when I called my mother to tell her what was going on she informed me that she has been pretty sick and would be seeing a doctor the next day to test for Lymes disease after finding a few ticks on her from walking in the wooded areas on some land my father recently purchased. What are the odds? So needless to say I have felt a little overwhelmed and I am utterly EXHAUSTED. I pray that if I do have Lymes disease that our baby is safe and is born healthy. I have done a good job not looking anything up tonight, last night, however, was a different story I was up until 1 am researching pregnancy and Lymes disease not a good idea. I really hope things slow down now. Please keep me and the baby in your prayers I really do feel like everything will be ok, which is saying a lot because as I stated before my mind goes to the worse possible scenario. So the question of the day is......Why do things fall apart the MINUTE they leave?????
*Posted some pics of our last day with daddy....
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